Surviving

 After going through all the emotions, I may possibly experience, I have to come back to reality. Coming back to reality means realizing you now have nothing but a home. It's understanding what you have to do to survive. Sometimes to survive we have to depend on assistance from the government, or we have to rub two nickels together to make a quarter. What does surviving feel like? Surviving feels like you are free-floating and the only way you are still alive is because of your nose., it's like drowning in shallow water. You do what need to be done to fill in the blanks and make yourself feel adequate enough for your life. 

Sometimes it's not the income that is causing the issue, sometimes it's just life. In order to make it life sometimes we have to push ourselves and we push ourselves over our limit. As mothers, fathers, spouses and caregivers sometimes we do not have time for ourselves. Our brains can't make sense of personal time if we are behind in life. Surviving is finding a way to fix what broke or replace what you lost. Your focus deepens, your responsibilities increase, your body gets tired, you lose sleep and you become overwhelmed. 

Most times while surviving you can barely maintain your daily life because of the cost of living or the pay does not fit the community. The more the cost of living goes up the less possible it is to handle daily, monthly responsibilities. In today's world we are all surviving, trying to thrive and make the best of our lives.